It is so hard to let go of the past. Almost everywhere I look, I see things that remind me of you. And the anger and betrayal come rushing back. You are doing fine now. You got a fresh start but I was stuck with or pay, surrounded by people and places that remind me of you. I want to move on now. It’s been three years now but it feels like yesterday. I should be happy. I have all that I want but I’m so lonely. I don’t trust. I believe that all anyone will so is stab me in the back. I tell myself if I get a fresh start it will change but will it??
So I hate to do this. I’ve never thought it would come to this, but the holidays have put me and my family into a really tight place. After a day of making myself sick, worrying constantly and talking it over with my friend who gave me the idea, I’ve decided to go for it….